Twenty Five : For _ _ _

Today will be different
I won’t think about you
I won’t make decisions based on how it would effect you, because you no longer effect me

you are no longer a part of my life, and I am no longer a part of yours.

Today I will smile without you, and laugh, and be.
I will exist without you.
I will thrive.
I will keep calm and carry on without you.
I will be fine. Without you.
I will rise on my own. I will stand on my own two feet. I will do what needs to be done.
I will be happy without you.

Today will be different.
Today I will be without you.

—————————–12 hours later——————————————————

Today I was without you.
Today was exactly the same.
I’m happy either way.
I do what needs to be done.
I rose, and stood on my own two feet and fell just the same as I ever did.
I clawed with my hands until my finger nails bled.
Inky red syrup in the dirt and the muck.
Then, with my stubborn pride, I rose again to face the fire, the wind, the rain.

Today I thrived in agony, in fear, in panic, stress.
Today I was without you, and today I was fine.
Today I existed without you, and you didn’t exist in my world at all.

Today I laughed, and smiled, and danced.
Today I danced without you.

Today

Today, I was only a part of my world. And the sun was blue, and the skies were red.
Today my life was color.
There was color in my world, without you.

Today was exactly the same.
Today I lived my life again, without you.